Threaded Alchemy

Creative Ramblings of One Crunchy Mama

The sound of my voice.

I’m going to start where this is relevant.. I just have to get this out.

Today was supposed to be a wonderful day.. and it was .. full of sun and fun and water  … and a can of iced tea.

Luke was on my lap cranky.. almost naptime, I opened the can.. he tried to grab it, I said no and put him down. He cried. Really cried. And I’m thinking.. what is that red spot on my leg.

I pick him up looking him all over .. and then I see it. Red. All over his hand.

Crap. Switch gears. It’s fine. F.I.N.E. Fine. Clean up the blood.. holy crap so much blood. Don’t say a word. He’s not even crying anymore. How could he not be crying? LOOK at that gash in his tiny little finger.. NO don’t look at it. Pressure pressure pressure. Bandaid. Tre’ hand me my bag. Front pocket.. ahh bandaids. Release pressure. Oh hell no, bandaid is not gonna cut it yet. Pressure. Luke is getting pissed. Little red circles splattered all over my light blue shorts. It’s fine. He’s sleepy. What time is it?!? Oh good, it’s naptime. OK let’s get comfy.

He’s asleep. Bleeding has stopped. Still fine. Still cool as a cucumber. Didn’t break a sweat. I’m wrapping a bandaid tightly around his tiny finger and I’m thinking.. shit, maybe he shouldn’t be asleep. It’s fine.

20 minutes later Willow is squealing with laughter and Luke wakes up. He’s laughing with her, playing in the sand. Running through the water. No big deal.

Get home, get situated. Bathtime, pj’s, screw the bandaids he keeps ripping off – someone get me the NewSkin –  and everyone is asleep. I gotta go potty.

I walk into the bathroom and cry my eyes out.

And I’m thinking.. how could I let that happen… it wasn’t fine.. it IS a big deal.. his blood is still all over me.. I can’t find my voice.

 

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6 comments on “The sound of my voice.

  1. beebeak
    August 5, 2009

    You were doing what ANY good mother would do, not panicking and trrying to just DEAL with the situation without freaking the little one out more. GIve yourself a break, you are doing a KICKASS job!

  2. hatcherbee
    August 5, 2009

    @beebeak – Thanks Kel.. it was just burning a hole in my head, I had to write it down and get it out..

  3. beebeak
    August 5, 2009

    @hatcherbee – i hear you! would have freaked me out too

  4. hatcherbee
    August 5, 2009

    It didn’t hit me till the day was over.. we were at Waywayonda and no one around us even noticed. But once it was quiet and I had a minute to think, THEN I freaked.

  5. VioletMoonDancer7
    August 5, 2009

    Awwww… poor little guy!  And poor you too!  I’m sure he’s fine since he was fine immediately after.  Did you figure out how he got it?  Was it the can of tea?  Everyone has those little breakdowns.  You did a great job of handling the situation calmly.  Props!  ❤ SuZ

  6. hatcherbee
    August 5, 2009

    @VioletMoonDancer7 – Yes it was the can, he must have stuck his finger right in the hole.. nasty cut for such a little guy. I swear I’m never buying canned drinks ever again.

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